Let the party continue...

Every time I write an article which deals with my personal life, I invariably start with a description of fate. I don’t know what fate is. And I generally don’t know how to start. So, it is a perfect match. But no, not this time.  I would start this small piece with the description of myself and my ignorance on certain things in life; rather the major thing. 

I am not good at expressing with an open mind, about how I feel on certain things, face to face. Honestly, I have never done that till today.  For me, it has always been easy in life. And with things at my fingertips without having to work towards it, certain things have been taken for granted. Those small things, a pleasant smile, a warm hug may be, whatever that is, was not seemingly important. It was all a joke, rather. 

Things were available and it didn’t seem necessary.  My mother had told me, that one will come to know the actual value of anything only after one loses it. Only few people will actually realize it before. Anyway, why I am cribbing so much this day? It is a question which I asked myself a lot. This state of mind has been persistent and has blocked all my other thought processes. But I am not complaining about this, strangely so.

This god damn question in mind pushed me far too long deep inside myself for an answer. Trust me; I am not playing any philosopher or a poet here. It didn’t take much time to realize though. For the first time in life, this thing called “friends” and the value these buggers add became the highlight. It took time for me to understand that there is a huge gap that these people are bridging. Leave apart bridging; realizing the fact there is a void somewhere within itself created a huge wave and thus the cribbing. Well one thing is clear, atleast.

For realizing rest of the things, I need to carry on from the inspiration I have currently got from them. The intention of writing this piece was to just get the frustration in me out, of not being able to recognize and appreciate the smaller things in life which I have shared with my friends. I was not able to learn from them. Some of them all of a sudden took the greatest position in my regards and became all time heroes.

I generally believe the only way to be happy is to “let go”. But I realized that it cannot be generalized, rather very difficult to. Anyway, what changes I am bringing into my life to be happy and to accommodate all these learning’s are only to be implemented and checked by me. There is definitely a call for change, when one realizes one’s ignorance on this and the value addition these friends add that will be missed.

The gap that was realized while looking at two such buggers leave was quite heavy. I had no other option but to put in writing on what I feel about the whole situation. I was not frank enough to speak it out in front of them. Anyway, looking back I have definitely realized their value addition on my plate. Amma was right. Now that’s another realization.

I shall at this point thank and wish two of my best friends Kumar and Akshay who have inspired me in every sense and are temporarily shifting base to the United States of America for their Master’s program.   

For the rest of us, let the party continue.