It's Beautiful! It's Outlandish!

To express any feeling from deep within, one must have read about it thoroughly or experienced it in totality. I am now on a spree appreciating the new found beauty in my life. It was there always, but I had blindfolded myself to it. I have not read about it in some book, it cannot be so. It is just my experiences in recent times, rather I have been made to realize. Some botherations in my life are not to be seen. Although a concern prevails on its reoccurrence, I am a little more careful now. When you are 25, you feel that you are inevitably responsible to a few things in life and that you can control it totally. And when those few things are those that define your life, you know you have a humungous task ahead. Well in my case, strangely so I welcomed the responsibility pushing away the laziness in me.

Life is beautiful. Poets are blessed to embrace it for a living. You get that feeling from within, that energy from which you start a new journey. You are happy for nothing. You feel good about things and you are confident that things are falling into place. You are ready to digest any failure and move on confidently.

A few lines from a Kannada song has inspired me a great deal off late. I feel more connected to it.

ಕಂಡಂತೆ ಕುಣಿಯತು ಮನವು

ಹೂವಾಗಿ ಅರಳಿತು ತನವು

ಹೃದಯದ ವೀಣೆಯನು ಹಿತವಾಗಿ ನುಡಿಸುತಲಿ

ಆನಂದ ತುಂಬಲು ನೀನು ನಾನಲಿವೇನು

To understand the difference between what our mind understands and what our heart comprehends fascinates me really. How on earth did one know that our heart can comprehend things. Or is it another side of our mind itself, we never know. All this while, I really found it funny. The materialistic approach had masked it all, until a beautiful accident (although intentional) quite removed it. It is amazing how us Human Beings have been able to appreciate Nature and connect to it at various instances in life. You invariably go to flowers when you speak about beauty, because it is beautiful. It blossoms in peace. It announces itself only through its beauty when it is fully ready. Now that is a learning. So when I am comparing myself to a flower that has just blossomed, I know I am in a state of trance. And then I slowly dive into the emotions coming out from a blissful music. It is an experience to be felt. It levitates me even though I am still grounded to my roots. I live in a different world then. It mobilizes you. You cannot remain in one single place.

It is good to see places outside. I have been doing that throughout my life, till now. I am having the time of my life travelling. But I have also realized how important it is to travel within oneself, after having visited there quite a few times now. You take in a deep breath slowly with a brilliant soothing music kissing your ears and touching your soul. You are definitely happy from then on. It is clear that the mind is jumping with joy from within. It is also clear that it needs to be controlled.

It is bizarre now, if I look back and realize that this state of mind is influenced. I was not this before. It takes courage to appreciate the little things in life. I was till now scared to express; scared of my image being portrayed in a way it will be, with this being inked and shared. I was afraid of being naked. Not that I was worried that it would be tarnished, just that it would be different from the normal. But I am shameless now. Things will not remain the same I understood. Change is a way of life. It is a good change that has happened. Lot of confusions got drained out. I am happy for who I am know. As my friend recognized this change over time and pointed out, I realized. I completely dived into this sea of change that occurred. It was quick.

  

I always said, to be happy and enjoy life; the sole life we all have got in this consciousness. I surely was ignorant then. I will say that again but with little rejuvenation of my thoughts towards it.

ಆನಂದ ತುಂಬಲು ನೀನು ನಾನಲಿವೇನು!