Phase shift!

Some experiences in life stay with you forever. You will not remember the learning, it is inherent. It has already happened for you. You have changed. But those memories from it that will still carry with you forward, provides a lot of mileage. You will really know when you are mentally healthy. There is no clog anywhere. You are free. And that is when you start reflecting back for good to understand the one thing which has helped change perspectives so drastically.

It is all perspectives isn't it? I have had some crazy fresh perspectives to life recently with encounters to new situations and new people in and around the very place I live. I always thought I had to get lost inside a forest to re-look at my life. I was wrong. The learning has been great this year, and guess why I am hitting this space again. Well, I am surely more light-headed. The perspectives I am talking about is clearly positive. A very close friend of mine just remarked recently that I look mentally very healthy. That was something I would definitely accept without a doubt. Oh my, it has taken a huge stride to get here. 

I have so got used to writing whenever I wanted to crib about my own situation in life, it is becoming difficult to articulate the current state of mind. Honestly, the mind is really fresh; out of all the nonsense and false following of the last few years. I respect those experiences still, as, a person can only rise into reality only if he/ she has accepted the fallacy within. The energies are high. The mind wants to open up to a few, to share and to smile. The cribbing has been silenced very well. Now, a warning pops up inherently every time the mind tries to drift. After I quit my job, my life has taken a lot of turns. 

Well, I need to earn now. Of course there can be no replacement to a person's intention of earning his own livelihood; ultimate freedom. The question however is, How? It has taken a lot of compromise and some wild travelling to try and figure out an answer to this question. I dont think I am still wandering at the cross roads trying to find an answer to this, but, clarity is still a concern. Confidence is not an issue. Hope is available in a bounty at very close quarters. 

I am still skeptical of a few things that I am right now. I always had this dream and intention to work on my own ideas right from college. There were a few good ideas. At least to my inference, those were good. But, it never really helped me maintain the lit fire. I saw it dying right in front of my eyes. And it was perfectly okay, then. It didn't really bother too much, until lately. 

To call myself an entrepreneur is something I still need time to get used to. It scares me. I would surely look for a place to hide. But the jump has been made into it. Managing a non-profit startup and trying to set up a for-profit creative venture, the life is now filled with uncertainties. But this time, I know why. And there is a plan on paper. And that is what's pushing me forward.  

To look into the way education as a whole is dealt with in our country and its relevance has been fantastic till now. I am not sure till when would it help maintain the now lit fire, but I have already started developing options. It is too much work for now, but as Steve Jobs said, "You can never connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backward. You have to only trust and do the things you are passionate about". Yes, we are on our way doing the same thing. Our schedules are already driven by the market, closing in on us quite fast.

While I am trying to figure out my future with this to have a monthly pay cheque at least, lot of other beautiful things happened. I am witnessing an evident shift in my concerns towards animals. I want to listen to some soulful music and get lost for the sole reason of its creation. Trying to understand music has always been tough. 

I am welcoming this new wave. I am not thinking too much but to try and surf on it. Recently it hit me, whether should I really take a moment, pause and re-look at what is happening with me right now. But then, I decided that I will for once simply go with the flow. Not that I am bored of going against the flow, just that I am enjoying the direction it is taking me right now. I am not very sure of where I am headed towards though, but I am simply enjoying the ride.